Hate me
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July 1, 2006 |
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| Label (s) | Universal Records | |||
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CD single |
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12:49 minutes |
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Sound Art Studios / Stomp Box Studios |
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Hate Me is a single from the 2006 album Foiled by Blue October and the band's best-known single with which they finally achieved their international breakthrough after Calling You . There are three single versions, a US version with 2, a European version with 4 and an Australian version with 4 songs. The music video was nominated for the "Best International Rock Video for the MuchMusic Award" in 2007 and won the ASCAP Award in the same year. The song can also be assigned to post-grunge due to the way it is played and the theme .
production
The single was sold under the label Universal Records as an audio CD and download single. There are 3 versions. The US, a European and an Australian version. The music video that was nominated for the MuchMusic Award followed later. There is also a karaoke video on the Playstation 2 game Singstar Pop .
Track lists
US version
- 1. Hate Me (intro version)
- 2. Hate Me (non-intro version)
EU version
- 1. Hate Me (with intro)
- 2. Hate Me (acoustic version)
- 3. Independently Happy
- 4. Hate Me (music video)
Australian version
- 1. Hate Me (with intro)
- 2. Hate Me (acoustic version)
- 3. Calling you
- 4. Independently Happy (live version)
The music video
The music video shows the singer listening to his answering machine. He carries this with him throughout the video. Later on, the video shows the singer lying dying on the floor, where his mother later finds him. He drives this device to a cemetery to the grave of his mother Ro-Anne, puts it there on the ground and drives back. At the end you see the singer talking to his mother. It also shows the singer's childhood. The video was recorded in Los Angeles .
The woman who plays Justin's mother in this video is also his mother in reality.
Guitarist C.B. Hudson told Frequency Music TV that the video portrayed Justin's life, from childhood to his mother's death (in the video).
Matt Noveskey , bassist for the band, said on the same broadcast that the video shows the truth about Justin's childhood and every single line is from the heart. He sees a clear message in this song that touches him.
Justin himself says that this song describes his problems with depression and drug addiction and makes his thoughts of suicide visible. He says it's his job to tell people what's going on in a person when they are mentally ill and thinks that this video was made at the right time.
content
The song begins with a message on the answering machine. This comes from the singer's mother, in which she asks how he is doing now, because she is nervous from the conversation the day before when she noticed that he had seemed a bit tense. At the end of the message, she also says that she loves her son.
"Message on answering machine: Hi Justin! This is your mother. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya. See ya! Bye Bye!"
In the first verse, the singer, who plays the song from his own person, tries to block the thoughts of his mother, but this does not work because these thoughts are planted in his head like cockroaches. He wants peace for his mother. Later he asks her indirectly if she would not call him the next day to ask how he is and to tell him that she loves what he explains by singing that she only does it to make him happy.
"I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space! "
In the second verse, the singer thanks his mother, who helped him stay sober for 3 months and never questioned his opinions, even if he hates himself to the death. He also says thanks for holding his head while he "waged wars against himself" and for trying to end that war. She made him like himself even if it was very difficult. Towards the end of the second stanza the turning point comes: the singer leaves his hometown and can no longer count on his mother to help. In the last section the singer writes that his mother should do everything in her heart that is necessary to let him go alone.
"I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind "
In the bridge, the singer tells that it was a big mistake to leave the mother alone. He writes that he is sad and that he steps shadows for each of his mistakes. Then the singer, realizing that he has hurt his mother's feelings, falls on his knees and screams that it should finally stop. The mother just asks him how he could do this to her.
"And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!" Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” “
The chorus describes that his mother should hate him in ways that he can hardly take. She should hate him today and tomorrow for what he never did for his mother. She should hate him so that she can see what is supposed to have been good for her in the end.
"Hate me today, Hate me tomorrow, Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you "
Awards and charts
- 2007: Nominated for the MuchMusic Video Award (Best International Video)
- 2007: Winner of the ASCAP Award
| Chart (2006) | Peak position |
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| US Modern Rock Tracks | 2 |
| Canadian hits chart | 6th |
| Canadian download singles | 9 |
| US Adult Top 40 | 13 |
| US Top 40 mainstream | 17th |
| US mainstream rock tracks | 21st |
| US Pop 100 | 29 |
| US Hot 100 | 31 |
Individual evidence
- ↑ Blue October Making-Of Hate Me with voices from the band ( Memento from November 28, 2015 in the Internet Archive )
- ↑ ASCAP Award Recipients ( page no longer available , search in web archives ) Info: The link was automatically marked as defective. Please check the link according to the instructions and then remove this notice.
